im ready to feel good again.
im ready to stop this.
im ready to go away away away

that person that you think you know?
the one you thought was different?
the one you rush home to every night?

you don't know them. don't ever think you do.
because all of their principles.
everything they believe in.
is just a front
they're too scared you'll walk out.
so they pretend.

when really they are exactly like everyone else.
everyone else.

The Midnight Showing of The Dark Knight...

was absolutely awesome. I was exhausted and fell asleep for a little bit of the chase scene but that was it. Before the movie they had about a half an hour of a trivia contest where all the batman nerds went to the front to answer questions. And of course I went home with the winner of the nerds:)Its kind of a cool thing to be able to say that your boyfriend knows more about batman than an entire Imax full of batman nerds. I really can't wait to see it again, but I'd rather see it in a regular theater with less people and at a more decent hour. The older I get, the less I am able to stay awake for any period of time after about 9 oclock.

which is slightly depressing. Also excited about Hellboy 2 and Wall-E which I have yet to see.
Going to start The Enchantress of Florence- by Salman Rushdie soon.

Banning Cell Phones from Libraries and Other Nonsense

Since when did the library cease to be a quiet place? I remember the libraries of my youth being DEAD quiet. You almost felt like if you sneezed that you would need to apologize. Not the JFK library. Not even remotely similar. In my opinion there should be no cell phone use allowed in the library, it simply isn't conducive to the libraries atmosphere. I also think they should take the espresso stand out. There are book in here HELLO. But worst of all is when you go to take your lunch and there is someone in the lunchroom on their phone. My thirty minutes of library hassle-free time is now filled with a coworker bitching on her phone to her husband.

Alas.

Final Fantasy 12 is a lot better than 10. I wish I had played 10 first and then moved on to 12. Ten is nice because there is a concrete story line that is very play-by-play and you feel involved in it. But 12 can hypothetically go on forever with all the side hunts and quests available. That way you don't get the let-down feeling when you finally beat a game and wish you had waited just a little longer and maybe leveled up a little bit more. I need to buy some more games. Or just start God of War like everyone has been telling me to.

Books I've read thus far:
wildwood dancing
Fahrenheit 451
Escape

So far I recommend Escape but be prepared for a person with an amazing story, yet not really having the gift of storytelling.

If you're not going to watch the Best Little Whorehouse in Texas for Dolly Parton

then watch it for the ingenious Charles Durning:



he's also the would-be governor in O Brother Where Art Thou

So this is what a blog looks like....

It already feels a lot like Livejournal. Even the little template is pretty much the same. Although I like the term blog better than journal. I was never good at writing in journals, it always turns into some sort of laundry list of things I've done all day. Or I only write in it when I'm pissed or sad and want attention. From what I've seen of blogging it just seems like individual thoughts about pop culture, certain products and celebrity type trash. Which is what my American consumer mind is generally filled with. Although I probably will write a lot about my summer reading, which as much as I try to keep it academic, all of these young adult fantasy novels keep creeping in on it. I use the excuse that thats the age group I most want to teach once I'm finished with school. But maybe its just the age group I am able to identify with the most. I definitely don't feel that I really belong anywhere as a 22 year old. I have a feeling my 30's is when I'm going to feel most comfortable. Being in your twenties is exhausting. All I do is go to school and work and come home and sleep. I can't exactly give up either one of those things. If I give up school I'll end up working shit jobs all my life, and if I give up my job I won' be able to support myself anymore. Thank you mom and dad for not setting anything aside for your kids' academic futures. At the same time though I don't ever feel exactly strapped for cash. I pretty much have everything I want in terms of material things. The measly teacher's salary of 35,000 a year ( at best) seems pretty much like a small fortune.

Yet it would be nice to simply get done with classes, come home and vedge for the rest of the day. I might even get to see my boyfriend for more than an hour a day. Maybe thats what keeps people together though, less exposure. I kind of look forward to a day just to myself, but then once he's gone I miss him. I must be addicted to his pheromones.